First of all, let me say that I quite like the new journal writing thingy that I think beta testers have. Its stylish, easy to understand and it gives a much better overview of your things while you are writing your journal. That being said, here comes a bit of a rant from me that might not be important to you at all. So if you are only interested about my deviations, then I don't mind if you don't want to spend your time reading my journal.
Yesterday night about 2am I was lying in my bed, eyes closed and I had so many things going around in my little head. I don't know about you, but this is usually the best time for me to think about things I usually don't think about. I often come to a brilliant conclusion, open my laptop and write it down. Next morning when I read it, I don't understand a thing I wanted to say but keep it in my folder anyway, just for writing it down. Anyway, I was lying there and I thought about my everyday life in general. I think I might say that I'm quite a emotional person. Not emotional like bohooo crying, but emotional like my emotions play a great deal in my everyday life. I like to do things right at the same moment when I think about it. For example when I have an idea that I should go and take some photos, then I have to do it at the same moment and not 15 minutes later, because by then I'm not so excited about it anymore. And I think that this is one of the things that I have most problems dealing with. It can be a good thing, a very good thing. When I have a right mood then I can do seven days of my work with just one day, at that moment I like to think fast and do things fast, with a good level of quality. This is also the reason why I am usually never late with my school work. While writing my course work, I had 4-5 months to do it but I decided to do it when I was in a good mood for it. That meant a week before final deadline. With few days I managed to write about 30 pages about something that I before had no idea of. I got a good grade for my course work and we were all happy.
But at the same time it can be a real bitch to you. In a right mood I tend to take many things quite seriously. Some of you might know that I have been a serious pc gamer and I use to spend up to twenty hours per day playing certain games for three years in a row. Again, when in a right mood, I can be quite serious. But that leads to different problems. When I actually am in a mood and I play games, this certain game tends to feel like the most important thing in the whole world. But it doesn't happen only with games, it can happen with everything. It can also happen with people here in deviantART. If you love something too much, you sometimes might go over the line with certain things. So if you see some bitching about new deviantART system or a feature or daily deviation, what ever, then this person might not mean it in a bad way. This is just how it turns out. Instead of giving some good feedback, he lets his emotions go wild and say a first thing that comes out of his mind. What you don't realize is that later, when he has cooled down, he might feel worse than you for saying things he did. That is why you should never judge a person by just reading one comment. He might have greater meaning behind it all, just the output is a bit wrong.
And this problem leads to the point what I wanted to make at the start of my journal. Being a very "emotional" person like me who gets too attached to some things, some things at the right time, might seem like the most important things. I think it isn't good at all. So over the years I have thought about it a lot and I would say that I have some control over the things I do now. Before I start with something new I now tend to think about the meaning behind me and in which way it would benefit me. For example when I talk about games. It can benefit me with good feeling and being relaxed. However it doesn't benefit me if I play too much. By thinking things trough like that and understanding the whole idea behind it, one like me can do great. That is also the reason why I want to divide my time between different things, one activity can't be dominant and rule over others. Things have to be balanced.
If you have read all of this then I say "good job" to you and ask a little question. How to you feel, who are you? Are you also quite "emotional" and want things right at the same moment?